Too cautious + Too Sensitive = Troublesome!

Di samping ku rasa gembira, I hv this awkward feeling! -_-

Being TOO cautious and TOO sensitive equals TROUBLESOME!! errggghh~ Kdg2 kan, aku tpikir.. cmana buleh urg lain suka request minta balikan itu.. minta balikan ini... esp. to the bf or any others dgn sngnya? As for me, takut ku. Bukan plg takut apa, more into galat lah. Mcm.... bpikir ku jua, krg tgl sikit duitnya. Siapa tau ia ada brg yg lebih penting kn d balinya? Wat if ia turuti kemahuan tane sebab nda mau tane sedih saja? And ia rela bekorban, instead of mbgtau terus terang? And thus.... dtg tia kesian ku =)

Another matter..... I'm being too cautious in terms of.... hak milik. Kalau brg ku, I don't mind if I were to share or give others my things or if I spend my money for them, skali skala.. tapi......... aku nda brani kn kacau hak urg, esp....... Lets say, someone bought this thing (brg makan) and let it remain at your place. And so if ada urg lain yg taisliur kn makan makanannya ani, I wud firstly seek for their permission! Kalau kana mkn tarus, yatah dtg uri ku tu!! Makanan haram, d mkn tnpa izin th.. Brg urg tah.. ani tah.. atu tah... errrkkssss!! Tapi kalau kn d bgtau yg brg atu c atu c ani punya, mcm urg kn bkira tia jua!! Mcm... kau2, aku2! Nda pedah2, tesinggung tia jua urg lain krg.. Ntah, ksian atu dtg nda pedah2 bh kdg2!! So ppl.. jgn heran kalau ku balik2 betanya kn permission! =)

Another one.. urg lain mcm nada saja mkn atu.. mkn ani.. w/o btnya buleh kh inda d minta. kalau aku, rapat cmana pun, mau2 jua btnya. Otherwise "ih~ urg punya. Jgn kn skati2 minta. Krg marah ya" =S Nonsense!! Tapi, kalau makanan ku, kana ambil tnpa izinku, nda plg ku kisah.. haha! calieee!!!

I've discussed this with Adee once before, n he said.... "well, at least that's a healthy mind".. Is that what u call as a healthy mind? Terlampau berhati2 + terlampau memikirkan prasaan urg ani melimitkan diri ku bh sbnrnya! Troublesome!!

Somehow, it makes me mcm anti-social ckit. I wanted to join, say, cuzen/ kwn ku yg duduk2 ramai2..... know wat actually stops me? "Krg nda kana alu2kan khadiran ku.. kot2 dorg bckp pasal aku? mana tau aku spoil cerita dorg? rahsia kah tu.." Ya Allah~ =( And so, aku prefer duduk sorg2.. tapi.... mcm urg ambung tia jua! Yes... pnah tu ku kana komen cmatu... uwaaaa~~!!!!

Pls no offense, readers.. Ane pendapat ku.. Minta maaf ku if ada yg terasa.. -_-